Friday, September 9, 2011

Anger

Early this morning, The Boy woke up, got himself dressed, and came into the room to find me. It was quite cute, with him in his Blues' Clues Stece shirt and shorts. He snuggled up and fell asleep. When I got up, he followed me into the bathroom and hung out while I dressed for work. We had a nice breakfast together, talking about his day yesterday. Afterwords, we went into the living room and he snuggled up onto my lap.

"Don't go, Daddy, I don't want you to go to work. Stay here with me."

Ultimately, he was quite upset with me for going to work. To make matters better, when The Wife came down with the boys to switch cars with me while she taught, he had just fallen asleep before getting into the car. This meant that he took his grumpy out on me until he woke up.

I've been pretty lucky over the last couple of years, because I've been able to spend a lot of time around the children. Sure, it's been hard being unemployed and planning for a career change, but it's had the great side effect of being a full time Dad for a long time. The unfortunate result is that going back to work has been a difficult adjustment for all of us.

We haven't found our groove yet, for sure. I know that I'm exhausted after the work day - I'm really concentrating for long stretches of time at work, and I'm working hard to learn the skills I need. When I get home, I'm exhausted! I haven't been able to be fully participatory with the boys. It hasn't helped that I have had several nighttime activities that have kept me out of the house through bedtime.

I'm hoping that he will start to deal with it better as time passes. I know that kids since time immemorial have had one or more working parents, but this has been kind of a special case. I miss him, and his brothers and mother, quite a bit! It is a difficult adjustment, to go from all day to a couple of hours with them.

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